The Half Way Point

Powering through the muddle and losing.

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We’re a bit past half through November and let’s not mention the lack of winter in Texas. The important thing to remember is that NaNoWriMo is half way done . . . and that is terrifying.

While I have reached my daily goal since day one, I find my story to be lacking. While I have the overall story planned, all the bits in between aren’t exactly there.

I’ve always been someone who plans some of the story before writing and someone who makes things up along the way. The problem with that is I underestimated the second book in the series. While Clan of Blood is its own book, it’s also part of a larger story. This is why I feel I should have planned out the story a bit more.

Now, there’s no use in regretting what wasn’t done. That’s not going to get me anywhere. It’s definitely a lesson I’ve learned.

As of now, the middle is slowing me down. I’m not bored, not at all, but I don’t know how to continue the main story. The subplots are there but I don’t want to derail the story and focus only on the subplots. Even though I know that subplots should feed into the main story, and I know how the subplots in Clan of Blood connect to everything else, for some reason, I’m having trouble putting it all in words. It’s like I forgot how to use words or something.

While my idea map has helped put everything into a diagram of sorts, I haven’t quite been able to plan ahead. I’m probably making this into a big deal because the editing part of my brain isn’t quite shut off. However, in the long run, it’ll be good for me to be aware that a lot of the story has to change in the edit. Clan of Ash, the first book, went through tons of edits too but unlike that time, there wasn’t a lot of pressure. Now, I feel like there is.

But it’s not like I can quit. I don’t want all that work and effort to go to waste. Plus, I need to write the second book. I love the story and the characters. I’m just afraid that I won’t do them justice. It’s just one of the many fears I have when it comes to writing in general. The idea seems so cool but the execution isn’t all there.

There’s so much doubt but I know I can get through this. I’ve struggled before and pulled through. For the moment, I’ll focus more on the scenes than the story as a whole. I won’t be abandoning the story. I’ll concentrate on the smaller parts that make up the story and try to connect them. Writing this, the ending is becoming a bit clearer. However, I don’t think that I’ll be able to fully finish the story in just 50k words.

As I type this post, the idea of just skipping everything and focusing on the main points seems better and better. If it comes down to it, I might just take that route. Or, I might not. It depends on how far I can go with what I have planned out.

*takes a deep breath* Don’t worry about being perfect. Just write.

A Little bit of Everything 

Today was more about typing what I had hand written for the second book in a series I’m working on – Clan of Blood – than actually ‘writing’ per say. As I’m still receiving feedback from my beta readers, I didn’t want to write too much in Clan of Blood in case I changed something huge in the first book. It’s a bit unfair to the story but, as of right now, I don’t want to go back and rework the plot of the second book. 

I’m not saying that Clan of Blood is set in stone or anything. I just thinm that it would be easier to write the second book once I know that the details of the first book are set. Plus, I don’t know how Clan of Blood is going to end so I’m a bit scared of continuing. I really don’t want to get writer’s block. Hence, it’s the reason why I have been avoiding this story. I’m horrible.

On a side note, I have also been beta reading through two more stories. I sent a chapter back last night and worked on at least two more but not as much. 

I should also mention that I’m going to write a review for a mobile game. More updates on that coming soon. I’ll be adding a link too. 

As of right now, I don’t think that I have a lot on my plate. That’s probably going to change but it will be a good change. I’m excited and hope it will all work out.